Sharing my personal Lilith experience on the Cat Rose Astrology Podcast Show

**The video below skips right into the story of Lilith 22.56 mins in for easy listening **

Lately I’ve been feeling the archetypal energies of the teacher centaur echoing in the past couple of days.

“Faith.” That is the word ever present throughout my life.

Faith is a curious creature.

The weight of this word feels monumental. It asks us to confront our most hidden fears. 

Why do we believe? Why do we place our hearts in the hands of the unseen, trusting in the intangible, holding a promise that holds no guarantees?

Perhaps faith isn’t about holding onto anything at all. 

Perhaps faith might simply be the art of letting go of control & certainty.

Of complete surrender into the embrace of the universe – trusting that even in the darkest moments, a lesson waits, patiently unfurling.

Faith is also Saturn. This revelation hit me strongly when Saturn in Pisces reached my 10th house. 

“Just how committed are you to your faith in what you do Michelle? Are you still willing to show up when we start sowing seeds of confusion your way?” 

Saturn in Pisces presents opportunities for easy hits of dopamine & escapism for me to navigate this year. 

I’ve been chalking it up to my squiggly neurodivergent mind on why things feel more confusing & distracting this year. 

As I try to uncover what Saturn is trying to teach me – understanding our elusive relationship with faith requires time when it’s through the lens of the elusive Pisces.

Meeting the Different Faces of Faith

My first introduction to faith (probably for a lot of us…) was being chained to the doctrines of Christianity and Catholicism. 

This chain for me was only held together by the fear of damnation. 

Being a Sagittarius, I’d like to think I was born to be curious & let my wanderlust be the driving force of my development. But this simply wasn’t in the cards for me.

I was frequently confined by dogmatic lectures from well-meaning friends from elementary school to high school. I detest being preached to. And yet that was my childhood foundation. 

Spiritual exploration was a no go for me. As someone with a Sun and North Node in Sagittarius, I felt like my soul was crushed each time someone micromanaged what I should believe & form the opinions of the world for me.

I thought traveling to the opposite side of the country to NYC for college would be a fresh new start.

“I get to finally explore adulthood. No rules. No one to tell me how I should behave or what to believe. I finally get to form my own opinions of the world around me.” 

And then I meet my assigned dorm mate. She would respond to my natural curiosity with tedious scripture dripped with righteousness. 

She was well meaning. Most of them are. But the irony of the situation isn’t lost on me. 

The weight of these religious teachings, suffused with dogma, almost guaranteed that my relationship to faith would be turbulent & fragile. Faith for me felt like an on and off relationship with a toxic boyfriend.

And as the years went on – I found my exploration of what faith truly meant to me constantly stopping short of progress. 

I was fascinated with shamanism, astrology, tarot, energy work and quietly admired the people who bravely chose to make it a profession. 

Yet I was too scared to openly explore this work myself because of the judgment and shaming I would experience from my past inner circle.

I wouldn’t realize until many years later that with the support of using astrology as a powerful self-actualization tool, finding out I had a Black Moon Lilith in Pisces 10th house would clear away all the self gaslighting, shame that I subjected myself to all these years.

My Lilith placement helped me to finally see that this karmic pattern I was experiencing was a form of cycle I was here in this lifetime to break out of. 

I’m here to deprogram the shit people would say to me. The many ways they would say:

“What you’re doing in your career is not of Christ. Stop what you’re doing if you want to be saved or you’ll go to hell.”

I’m here to deprogram the belief that wanting a career as a vessel for spiritual exploration & development (outside of a church god) meant something was deeply wrong with me.

The weight of these external projections people expected of me felt so heavy. 

I delayed starting my spiritual business, detouring into careers and job titles that wouldn’t trigger & anger my religious friends and cousins. But I was so miserable. 

The tower moments kept happening. Because I haven’t decided to break that pattern of conditioning. 

Enter Black Moon Lilith: My Guide to Rediscovery

I didn’t know it at the time…but all the tower moments that led to where I am today was Lilith supporting me behind the scenes. 

As an anxiously attached person. Whenever I was rejected, abandoned by someone I loved because I could no longer stand following their god. Or go to their church. I was wrecked. Lonely.

The love they had for me was conditional based on my willingness to abide by their religious beliefs. 

Each time a bond was broken. My inner Lilith would echo back:

“Michelle, you will be okay. Keep going forward.”

Painstakingly, listening to my inner Lilith has given me the courage to finally cut away the religious shackles keeping me stuck, ashamed, and distrustful of my own inner voice.

Every time I felt the tug of strings pulling me away from my inner truth, pulling me into a mold not made for me, Lilith’s energy  would show up in those tower moments, ready to help pick me back up. 

She isn’t gentle or delicate with her teachings either. No, she’s the storm that uproots my foundations, forcing me to rebuild stronger, better, truer. 

Whenever I was about to surrender my voice, ready to shrink into the background after a boundary of mine had been violated, she would show up relentlessly with her rage. 

Her fierce roar. Her energy would be abrupt like thunder. 

My throat would feel a buzzing sensation – shocked that Lilith’s fighting words came through the sound of my own voice to defend my personal truths. 

Lilith became my siren, my biggest advocate of rebelling against decades of suppressing my power at the expense of making those that were undeserving, feel big. 

Lilith Helped Me Find Faith in My Self-Worth

To bring more context into who Lilith is… She is probably one of the most elusive characters with many faces depending on who is telling her story.

Historically, in Jewish folklore, Lilith is described as Adam’s first wife, created from the same earth as him, unlike Eve, who was created from Adam’s rib. 

Lilith refused to be subservient to Adam, especially during intimate moments, wanting an equal stance in their relationship. 

When her desires were denied, she left the Garden of Eden, leading to her depiction as a demon or dark spirit. In Christian and Catholic representations, her act of defiance against both Adam and God made her a symbol of disobedience, sensuality, and rebellion. 

However in modern interpretations and a depiction I personally resonate with, Lilith embodies the spirit of independence, freedom, and courage to rewild so you can discover who you are outside the shackles of patriarchal & societal expectations.

Black Moon Lilith in your natal chart

When it comes to the context of astrology, Black Moon Lilith is a symbolic point representing the raw, primal feminine energy. Unlike traditional celestial bodies, Black Moon Lilith is not a planet or a star; it is a mathematical point (location) in space, specifically the point that represents the furthest ebb of the Moon’s elliptical orbit around the Earth. 

Black Moon Lilith in your natal chart can indicate areas where you might feel marginalized, suppressed, or “in the shadows.” It’s a gateway to exploring the darker or unexplored parts of oneself, the parts that society might deem “unacceptable” or taboo. Everyone has an aspect of the divine feminine within them. Black Moon Lilith points to the unbridled, wilder side of this energy, encouraging an embrace of authentic power and a breaking away from societal constraints.

For me with this placement in Pisces 10th house, there’s a pronounced feeling of being ‘different’ or ‘misunderstood’ in my professional life and societal status. The 10th house amplifies societal projections and expectations, especially when it concerns one’s career or public image. In my case, this placement intensified my internal battles against societal expectations, pushing me to challenge norms and assert my own spiritual identity.

The placement of Lilith in my astrological chart was not just a sign, but a guide to rediscovery. 

It helped me recognize and confront the shadows cast by others’ expectations. Every time I felt stifled by these projections, I found solace in being supported by embodying Lilith’s archetype whenever I needed it the most.

Redefining Faith in Business and Beyond

Starting a spiritual-led business, where I embraced my role as an intuitive business astrologer, was not just a career choice; it’s a spiritual journey I’ve courageously chosen to embark in this lifetime. 

It marked my departure from a faith that was built on external validations to one that celebrated inner truth and personal revelations. It taught me that faith and confidence could be intertwined, just as Lilith had demonstrated in her quest for self-liberation.

When I look at my sacred business today, I realize that this creation is a byproduct of listening to my inner Lilith.  

Even the fact that I’ve chosen this spirit-led pathway both intrinsically and on a public scale is a celebration of a faith not bound by patriarchal & religiously dogmatic norms. 

A faith that doesn’t measure devotion by obedience but by the genuine quest for spiritual understanding.

Today, my understanding of faith goes beyond the constraints of religious texts and patriarchal doctrines. It’s not just about believing in the unknown; it’s about trust, about surrendering control and recognizing that we’re a part of a grand design.

For me, faith is the acceptance that every chapter, no matter how painful, brings its wisdom. 

It’s about understanding that challenges and uncertainties are not punishments but lessons. And in this journey, figures like Lilith serve as guiding stars, reminding us of the power and resilience that resides within each one of us.

I invite you to connect with your inner Lilith

Walking this twisty road of faith, I’ve stumbled, second-guessed, and found resilience in the most unexpected ally: Lilith. 

In both archetype, spirit guide, and astrology – Lilith is the fierce emblem of rebellion, resistance, and rebirth – serving as my torch in an old life of societal shoulds and shouldn’ts.

If you’ve been wanting to explore how co-creating with your own inner Lilith and benefit your growth in both your personal life and sacred business – I’ve crafted an experience – not just a course – a transformative journey where you can unravel, challenge, and redefine your relationship with faith & inner voice & self-worth, hand in hand with Lilith.

With Lilith as your co-pilot, this is about honoring the raw, unfiltered you, breaking free from boxes, and sculpting a faith that’s uniquely, courageously yours.

If your heart’s doing that little fluttery thing (you know what I’m talking about), then maybe, just maybe, this journey is calling to you. 

I invite you to dive deep, rise high, and explore uncharted territories of the soul, together.